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He comes upstairs, and demands to look at everything I've got open.
Which, fortunately was nothing really bad, but of course he finds something to complain about.
Evidently somebody's userinfo that I had open had the Cheno Half-Naked Dressing Room colorbar. If he'd have looked at the picture, he'd have seen that she most definately was not any naked. But, as I said, he's an asshole.
He goes into this rant about how I'm doing things that I'm not supposed to be doing and how the internet is dangerous. And I'm all like "I'm not a child" and he says "Yes, you are." And decides to cancel the internet. He does say that every few months, but this time, he's rather serious, I'm afraid.
In every single one of my classes, there have been assignments that it is absolutely impossible to do without the internet. Mom says that's discrimination against people who don't have the internet and that they have to let you use the computer at school, but who's going to say, "Yeah, my dad cancelled the internet because he thinks I'm looking at naked pictures of Kristin Chenoweth." Who's really even just going to stand up and say that they don't have the internet at all when everyone else does. But I digress.
He also added that from now on, I've got to have someone standing behind me when I'm on the internet. So, that just about ends my life.
This is probably the last time I'm going to post on here, or anywhere.
He wants access to my harddrive now. My external one that I got for Christmas. (Which has my stories and stuff on it.) I'm going to end up having to wipe everything. My harddrive, my email accounts, my LJ, every board that I ever posted on. I wouldn't put it past him to google my name and email tomorrow at work. Which I have done, and which comes up with not only fanfic, but my posts on here and everywhere.
I'm reluctant to put this behind a friendslock because I really like it when random people look at my journal and comment. It's a way to make friends.

So, my privacy is about to be officially invaded. I'm going to have to take my giant, overstuffed fanfiction binder to school tomorrow and recycle all the paper there. I'm trashing all my incomplete works. And I'm throwing away my quote book (because lots of the quotes are from fics).

I'm so totally in a downswing right now that this makes me want to kill myself really badly. I suppose, truly everything makes me want to kill myself really badly, but this is worse than it has been in a long time.

I'm off to begin the total erasure of my life.