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[fenrisranger]

I think the accident shook me up more than I thought. I couldn't get to sleep last night at all. It's not like I kept seeing it or anything (though I replayed it in my head a scary number of times) in my dreams, but I was still more. . . idk, shaky than I let myself realize.

And now I'm avoiding leaving for school even though I'm going to be late if I don't. Fail.

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[ex-chaosity.livejournal.com]

Shock's a bitch.

Idthink I was actually in shock or anything, but it reminds me of that time my ""friend"" (look, double-quoted) showed me the video of that man being beheaded? Remember me mentioning that? When I first saw it I remember feeling sort of scared, but more disgusted than anything. Then I didn't think about it for the rest of the day or evening. Then when I was finally alone in my quiet room I remembered, and it scared the shit out of me. I told mum about it, and we talked and bitched for a while, then I was suddenly really exhausted (though idk if that's related at all) so it didn't take me long to go to sleep. As soon as I put a DVD in and focused on that I was fine.
Then, for some reason, the next night was the worst. I kept seeing his face, even when I wasn't dreaming. I slept for an hour or so, then woke up and didn't go back.

And that's my story.